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Everything is topsy turvy today.. I just feel like crying out loud at everything around me in the room...

I guess it's all pent up frustrations of things that I was unhappy with previously, but just tat I cldnt find how to express it all.. I gotta learn how to express my unhappiness more appropriately, finding the correct words that do not mislead and make things sound worse than they actually are..

I need to manage my feelings too.. controlling that anger whenever I feel pissed.. I always feel my heart racing and blood rushing through my veins when Im really pissed off..

I need to learn how to say that I dont feel right about it when Im being blamed for things that I dont even know why I am blamed for.. I need to learn to balance being nice to people and being too nice till I get blamed when things go wrong.. I need to balance being nice and getting taken advantage of just cos Im nice..

So many I needs.. So much frustrations.. So much so that I dont even know what is the root of all the frustration in me today..

Maybe I just need a nice break, away from my Laptop, away from my mobile phone.. No customers calling or messaging past midnight, no emails to reply to.. Away from buildings and urbanization..